I guess everyone knows what a weird mood is, but I think everyone’s weird mood is different. I regularly dance around spiraling out and existential crises – ready to just dissociate, shut down, and disappear into darkness. I used to feel like even saying that was unbalanced and over dramatic but learning more about the Enneagram has me more willing to just say it. I’m not so unique in this experience (5w4 if you’re curious). So yeah, a lot of days I drag my better self behind my shadow self and just do the best I can. This year has seen a lot of those days, but to be honest, a lot of years have but that’s not a rabbit hole I feel like going down today.
Today, I felt weird and did unhealthy/unproductive things, but I did these healthy things too:
Ate berries with my breakfast.
Ran the dishwasher 2x and put a load of laundry in
Played indoor soccer with Hover ball with my son after dinner
Read a Christmas book with my son before bed
Lit the Hope and Peace candles on the Advent wreath my grandfather made even though no one else was there and I didn’t read a special scripture. I just sang “Let There Be Peace On Earth” in my mind for a minute.
Took a break from my Netflix mini binge of Community to talk with my daughter (at her request) when she came out of her room for a Toaster Strudel so we could chat.
